god save the queen

'the horror of that moment,' the king went on, 'i shall never, never forget!' 'you will, though,' the queen said, 'if you don't make a memorandum of it.' ~lewis carroll, through the looking glass

light is bleeding through the window. replacing an evening in sharp edges.

i imagine the events of yesterday have everyone contemplating the great sweep of time and space, wondering about the peculiar evolutionary magic that puts us -and not someone else- at a particular time in a universe still expanding.

the news has made me sad and sick. not just for the lives that were cut short, but for the twisted dance that will inevitably follow. the media circus. the political parade. the ruthless search for blame. a symphony of manipulation.

the need to put a face on the pain does us all a disservice. there are some things that aren't meant for us to understand; just as there are things we aren't meant to dwell upon. as unmistakable as the horror was, i trust our capacity for forgiveness and for faith is inexhaustible. we craft today, create tomorrow, through our own choices...and i pray this story reminds us to listen to the voice inside and make a difference in the life we currently live.

the queen of hearts was right. the horror will subside, if we let it, and if we don't waste time contemplating the 'what if' when we can move forward into the 'what is' and 'what will be' and fill those moments with grace and gratitude and beauty.

may god bless the virginia tech family. and god save the queen.